好累哦~好久没那么忙了~一忙就忙到通宵。。。。甚至睡不着~痛苦的是。。我该怎么面对那两个人？我不想再带烦恼或压力给师父他了~他的压力很多了。。。 真的不想给他带来困扰。。。所以打算不说。。。 到现在。。 真的不知道要什么理由了！！！ 烦啊！！！非要我离开他。。你们才甘愿吗？到底是怎么了？？ 那传言是真是假。。有那么重要嘛？？ 就如你们所说的。。 如果你觉得我和他在一起。。。 既然我都不在意那传言的真相了。。 何必多问呢？这哥想起都因为这件事。。。 反反复复的。。又头痛，又胃痛。。。 更是睡不着！我求你！不要再为难他了行吗？？拜托！！

昨天5.30才睡。。。 今天9.00就爬起来了。 得陪大哥和大嫂去拍婚纱照。。 拍了大概12哥小时。。。 累死我了。。。换了9套衣服就算了。。。 还要出外景拍。。哇。。那时的我‘追求者’还真多。把我的血都吸到。。有够干的。。。因为大嫂的阿姨和姨丈来。。所以。。。 为了让他们开心。。。 喝了半杯。。 真的不行了。。 今天又累一下。。。然后11.10到家了。。我就直接来写blog了。。。还久没去看他blog了。。看到时。。真的很伤。。 我不知为什么那么在意他所post的blog。。不知他是写爽，还是为了要让我明白他的拒绝还是。。。什么之类的。。。 真的好伤。。 我告诉我自己。。如果知道结果会是那样。。。 我还真的很希望我不会去开他blog。。更不要发现他blog有什么更改~因为这样。。。 我就不会被伤害了。。。





这是大哥和大嫂的照片。。。至于我和他们的。。。。。算了吧~

20.12.09(a day trip)(sunday)

to KL
-sungai wang,time square(will discuss with everyone in the bus for more shoppings)
-40$ each(you yi bus,30 seats)
interested .. contact me ~



14.02.09(single party)

in K one
-are you single?if yes.. just join...








don't know what happen today.. really blur...first friend.. then now you... i don't really know your meaning..it's my fault.. maybe i make you think i'm forcing you... but..i just wanna tell you.. i don't .. sorry for all... everything..sorry...

if you think i'm forcing you.. i'm really sorry ...for the day.. if you think it's ridic for you to do what i wanted.. then just forget bout it. i just want you to be happy. thats it...sorry.





#really need to be alone and calm myself down for matterSSS..otherwise i'll really commit suicide because of someone i really care..#sorry to you..this is what cn say in this title.好想自杀啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

i saw!i saw everything !evrything you'd done to me!she wants me to cool down... not to bother you..yes.. i should and i did follow.. but.. i can't make it nothing happened before!you'd ruined my WHOLE LIFE..i'm sure..i'll get mad.,. and even commit suicide if i can't stand!

i'm really confused..why don't you believe me?!you think i'm cheating?ha!it's your freedom to believe or not.. but.. you'll know the truth sooner or later..i'll prove evrything to you!it really hurts when you ask me that question...wll..since you don't believe me.. why you wanna be my friend ?why you wanna be my XXX since that time?i really don't understand what human's thinking~incredible terrifying horrible~regret to accept me as 'those'?haizz~~ whateva la~your choice to belive me nor~sorry for everything~


don't find me anymore if you still don't believe me..or suspect me~thanks.. and sorry that i hurt you..


*you know who i mean*right?!

at last ... i know what's this mean... i look down upon you? haha... why should i look down upon you?if we're not suit.. why should you plan all this to hurt me?what are you thinking?what are you planning?what are you doing?i asked myself many times... i don't know... why do you wanna do this to me... i know you knew the reason i delete my postSSS... that's all because of you!my memories!memories with her!with you!with friends!everything!you ruined my life!i'm getting fed up living!the sweet bitter memories i jotted in here day by day with my truely own heart.. NOW!those can only remind me in my DEEP HEART CORE!without sharing my happiness!my sadness!my frustration!i'll really get mad because of you!i shouted timeSSS saying i wanna give up!yeah~i did... but you did appear infront of me again.. you sms me again and again~why!i hate you i hate myself~i HATE!!!but... whoever i hate~i will never hate HER!remember... she's the one who cheer me up,gave me futures even colourSSS!not like you!keep saying i'm looking down upon you?!do i ?i don't think so!please~let me go... i can't breathe with you forcing me..


LISTEN!even if i'm still LES!i'll never fall in love with her neither you!




这种恨，有口难言。。。你。。。让我无法自拔！我对不起你。。就算是我对不起你好了。。拜托。。。不要再缠着我了能吗！我在此的回忆！都给你抹去了！你！甘愿了吧？！心满意足了吗？我在此跟你说对不起，偶们是不可能的了！我受够了！我在此的回忆已被删除。。你如果是爱我。。就应该让我自由。。不是吗？！我。。。真的喘不过气了！拜托！

something happen ... made me feel like killing people... i just wanted to tell someone.. i delete this blog.. just because of YOU!it's really ridic to hear that you give no privacy to me~this is my blog... i've the right to write my feeling, my thinking,everything, and anything!don't have to report anything to anyone,anybody please!i beg you!please!it's my freedom!neither relatives,nor friends.. RESPECT me.. i really din't lie... it's your freedom to believe or not... but please know... we're just thinking the same way... doesn't mean .. we're together... or... anyhting!please.. believe what i say.. i'm normal.. so do the person!so.. you don't have to spread my stuffs to anyone which you say WORRY!this will be even worst if you say things without don't know anything!F**K!son of a bitch!



well.. shi fu,me,siew ching,soo yen.. went lots of places.. it's kinda tire too... erm... cause of some pro. make me up sad.. cause ..it's really unbelievable that you treat me like this... i'm really sick of that.... i hope you can be so CRUEL!damn!cried for this!i'm f**king useless!for treating you so good....i'm blue!fed up!get out from my life !please~

we went to amour,river cafe,hok chack..then to shi fu's house...well.. i mentioned.. coz of some PRO. ... make me don't have the mood actually..


shi fu's brother and sister are so active... warm house~ will never forget~